When I got engaged, my sister was the first person I told.
When my sister got pregnant with her first, I was the first person she told.
When I got in my car accident, she rushed to the hospital.
When my sister was in the hospital with toxemia before lilly was born, I visted her every day.
I've never had anyone else cut my hair since I was 13.
I've babysat her kids more times than I could count.
I was there when Lilly was born. [I was downstairs in the ER when Max was born]
She loaned me money once to pay my tuition.
She helped an insane amount with my wedding.
What I'm getting at is that she's always there for me. She's so unselfish and giving towards me. She definitely has her own way of showing it, but I know she loves me. She's my best friend.
She moved yesterday.
I balled my eyes out all day.
[thankfully I held it together for Clint's family pictures]
I held it together all through helping her move but when we said good-bye we both lost it.
I can't imagine how the above situations would have been different without her here.
I keep thinking about how our kids won't get to be playmates now. How we can't meet for playdates on a random weekday. How she's not going to be down the street if I need something. How I'm not going to be just down the street if she needs something. How I don't get to be there when Max learns to walk. to talk. I don't get to be there on Lilly's first day of school. I don't get to see them change in the same way.
How when my car breaks down I'll have to call someone else.
How if I need someone to go to the scary lady doctor with me, I have to find someone else.
If I have a bad day and need a friend to go out to lunch with, I have to ask someone else.
I basically never go shopping with anyone else.
I know we're still sisters and can still be great friends, but this move changes a lot of things. I know there's a lot of things to be optimistic about. It'll be fun to go visit her and all that. But right now I'm not in the mood to think about that. I just want to be sad and miss her for awhile.
[not in chronological order]
[Jenna, if you're reading this we need to take more pictures together. I had to go back a million years for all these random pictures!]
Do you have a sister? Do you love her as much as I do?
Seriously doubt it.