Wednesday, May 1, 2013

Lo Siento

If you fell victim to my ultra negative post yesterday, I'm sorry. 
I was about to go back and delete it when I read the comments. Turns out I'm not the only one who feels like that sometimes. As silly as it might be, I really need to hear I'm not the only one. Good or bad, I'm the type of person who needs my feelings validated. Maybe that's a big reason why I blog. Not only do I like to share my story, but I also like to read the story of others who go through the same things.
Still, I know no one likes a complainer, sorry about that, but it's hard to be honest without acknowledging when things are hard. Whaddyagonnado?
Having a baby has been an amazing experience. I love so many things about it. But no one told me how hard it can be. I know a lot of people ease into motherhood seamlessly, but a lot of people don't. I'm not alone. I wish someone had told me how hard the adjustment to motherhood can be, regardless of how much you love your precious baby! Seriously, life is at least 17 times harder when you're severely sleep deprived. There were times when I'd cry and then cry harder because I was frustrated with myself for crying! Plus, life doesn't stop. The world doesn't care that you just had a baby and sometimes hard things still happen!

I had a lot more to say but now I'm drawing a blank. I guess that means it's time to share super cute pictures of my amazingly adorable baby with you. 

 Ainsley with my brother who was in a paragliding accident. He just came home last week after three months in the hospital, over two months in ICU. We're so thankful he's still here!
 Her rolls. Her face. Her fuzzy hair. I can't get enough!!
I really am so blessed. 

I hope I didn't discourage anyone. Motherhood is hard, but it's also all kinds of wonderful. 

p.s. If you're a mom and could use some encouragement (couldn't we all?) some pretty good encouragement can be found here:


Sean and Deana said...

Oh yes I agree. Motherhood is hard. Dont feel bad for posting hard or negative things. Life isn't perfect and I like most the blogs that dont pretend it is.

I remember when Noah was first born how hard I tried to do everything and be like those moms I'm friends with. They seemed so put together, always looking cute, lost the weight super quick, good attitude. Then I looked at myself and I felt like I looked fat, tired and barely dressed. After talking with them I found out they thought the same thing about me as I did about them! They thought I had everything together.

Its true we judge ourself the hardest. I think you are an amazing mama not because of your cute outfits and rockin body (although on both accounts I think you are doing dang awesome) or clean house or any of those other things but because I can tell how much you love your little girl!

Bethany G said...

She is soo cute!

I was feeling rather negative yesterday too... ha .. and I love to know I'm not alone either. It's so comforting!
Being a momma is the best thing I've ever done, but one of the hardest too!

Leah said...

I think it's important to post how hard Motherhood can be sometimes. I knew there were going to be poopy diapers and sleepless nights, but I don't think anyone really told me that those things are HARD necessarily, and throughout the past two months I have had to learn that it is OKAY to put the baby down or ask someone to watch him for me so I can have 20 minutes--or even 2 minutes--by myself. I felt like I was supposed to be Supermom and feel good that I'm always the last to take a shower and the first to get out of bed or do the dishes, etc. And while I can do all those things and see that they're necessary, sometimes I need help. And that's okay!

So post on. :) You have plenty of beautiful pictures of your little girl to demonstrate how wonderful Motherhood is as well.

Lisa said...

I just have to say that your baby should seriously be a model. She is so pretty and so cute.

Brittany LeSueur said...

Nobody can understand motherhood, except a mom.Its so hard! I seriously have cry fests all the time? Both happy and sad ones. Talk about an emotional roller coaster. As for the lack of sleep...that gets slightly better. Promise!

Courtney B said...

I am SO glad he's home!!!!
And the pictures of Ainsley on that rug are my all time favorite! I just want to squish her!!