I beat myself up a little too much.
Basically, I'm a human being.
Yesterday I gathered all my strength and dragged myself to church. Let me tell you, it was tough. My church is 3 hours long. In relief society (the last block where it's just the adult women), the teacher shared an incredible story!
You all should read it now. If I could learn to master this skill, my happiness factor would be through the roof!