Not in a I'm-better-than-you-because-you-do-blakity-blank kinda way.
But because I see a great person, who I love, that has imprefections- and they're still amazing!
So maybe, that means it's okay that I have a few too.
It's easier for me to be tolerant of others' faults than my own.
I realize that it's okay for others to be sad, feel upset, forget something, make mistakes...but if it's me, it is NOT okay. If I loose my patience once I must be an impatient person. I beat myself up about it til the sunrises...and then start over. Lather rise repeat.
I'm such a perfectionist about my conduct, but I'm so not a perfectionist with a thousand other things.
And there you have it, I'm a perfect imperfectionist. Or an imperfect perfectionist. Whatever you prefer- I aim to please!
I'm a walking contradiction.
But then I realize that we all are.
Characteristics aren't absolute.
If someone is patient it doesn't mean they are 100% of the time.
If someone is smart it doesn't mean they can't get a bad grade.
If someone is frugal, it doesn't mean they never splurge on something they love.
I have a million of those.
- Despite my perfectionism for myself, I actually prefer some things imperfect. I liked when my choreographed dances didn't look perfect. I love when something I make looks handmade, not perfect. I like when a few hairs are out of place. I like freckles. I really see beauty in imperfections.
- I've very independant, but I feel loved when someone serves me.
- I'm smart with problem solving, but I stink at tests and memorizing.
- Sometimes I'm confident, sometimes I'm not.
- I'll have strawberry qunioa home-made cereal for breakfast, but a Dr. Pepper and chocolate with my lunch.
- I'm fine being lazy days on vacation, but can't be lazy for a half hour to watch a TV show.
- I am stubborn about 24% of the time. A pushover for 12% of the time. And somewhere inbetween the rest of the 64%
- I had never cried in a movie until recently. Now I cry during 30 second commericals. The dog ones get me every time. There's a reason I don't keep my credit card close when I watch TV.
- I think more than $10 is way too expensive for a shirt, but I have no problem buying all the healthy [expensive] produce. Why are all the high antioxidant foods so expensive? Berries. Avacados. Bell Peppers.
- Sometimes I care what people think, sometimes I don't.
- I hate talking on the phone or texting but could talk in person for hours on end.
- I'm all into time-management but sometimes spend more time managing my time than getting stuff done. Writing a to-do list is my favorite thing to do.
- All I've wanted to do since I was two years old was be the best mom in the world. Now that it's a possible reality, it scares me half to death. Wait...a newborns head is HOW big?!
One thing is for sure:
I myself am made entirely of flaws, stitched together with good intentions. - Augusten Burroughs
I haven't figured myself out yet. So tell me, what are some of your contradictions?
First two photos are unedited.
10 comments:
I love this b/c I am SUCH a perfectionist about so many things. However, I've tried to get over those ways in recent years. I'm a recovering perfectionist? I totally beat myself up about the smallest things too. But like you said, just because we are impatient once, doesn't make you an impatient person...or whatever.
Have a lovely day girl!
Love this! I can be such a perfectionist... plus I always want to be in control :/ Ugh, those ASPCA and Humane Society commercials get me every time... I'm such a sap when it comes to animals!
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Love. This is too true.
haha whenever I clean my room or anywhere I want something askew so it doesnt look like I spent too much time on it or something, idk.
And I cant wear the same color twice in a row when I hang out with someone. If i wear blue the first time we hang out, I cant wear blue the second time we hang out.
Love this post...I think it definitely works for me, too! I tend to be a major perfectionist with most things. You are gorgeous. That last picture is amazzzzing!!
And I'm totally scared to become a mom, too. Although I can't wait!!
OH MY GOSH when i first looked at that last picture it looked like you were missing the bottom half of your leg and i freaked out and was like, "wait how did i not know this about her??" but then looked closer and your toe's just pointed and i'm weird.
This is fantastic.
I feel like our blogs are really similar. Ha ha. I bet we'd be friends in real life.
I am a total walking contradiction. Like, I am really strict about counting calories . . . but if I see a piece of cake I want, I'll pretend it has zero calories and doesn't effect my daily total. Awesome, right?
P.S. You are a total babe. That first picture (well, all of them) is stunning.
amazing post! hmmm, my contradictions... i am a vegetarian.. but i often don't like eating my vegetables. haha. I have to combine them in a recipe so that I'll like them. I struggle to eat them plain. something I am trying to train myself to be better at:) love your blog! new follower:)
True true! I think we all do that!
I love this post so much I read it twice;-) I feel the exact SAME WAY about your last contradiction- we have waited 4 years to have a baby and now that we are trying I am FR-EAKING out! ha. Gorgeous pictures!
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