Thursday, September 27, 2012

Happenings, thoughts, and Everything else.

Oh look! You're still here!
Even after my super ultra awkward pictures?
Go ahead and give yourself a pat on the back. And if you have easy access to a cookie, go ahead and have one of those too. 

So life is super crazy right now. I wasn't aware you could be simultaniously so stressed and happy at the same time. Just livin the dream peeps!

There's a lot of things on my mind.

For starters, why don't I have a cookie in my hand right now? Life is hard.

Secondly, my husband is the greatest. Last night he told me from the back I still look just as thin as before. A stretch? Probably! Instead of making sure he noticed an obvious absence of a waist, I thanked him and hugged him and kissed him, because that's what you do with husbands.

Today one of my professors told us that if we survive his class we should make T-shirts. I can see it now...."I survived Dr. Martin's Nutrition Assessment 446 from Hell. Autographs $5."
I thought it was hilarious. That is all.

I mopped and swept the floors today and it was exponentially harder than the last time I did it. This belly gets in the way. The sciatica is worse. Fatigue is going up and up. How's a girl supposed to catch a break, eh?!
Also...I see you judging me for not cleaning my floors for almost two weeks. You just go ahead and knock it off!

Ainsley goes crazy like....all the darn time. Party. Animal. Either she moves a ton in her sleep...or she doesn't sleep. It's distracting. Sometimes it wakes me up. Sometimes I just stare at my belly. It's crazy to see my belly make waves or to see big thumps on it. A few weeks ago I balanced a pencil on my belly and watched her kick it off. To me it looks like she's knocking..."Mom, can I come out yet?!" No baby girl, no. Not until the afternoon of December 21st (my graduation day). Then feel free. Except for days 23-26. Christmas has claimed them.

I am really stressed. I mentioned that before didn't I? Balancing work, school (which is insane!), my calling, being crazy sick, my daily 2.5-3 hour commute, cleaning the house, cooking and a billion other things are taking their toll. The other day I had to give a presentation in class but I was vomiting. I worked through the presentation shaky, sweaty, and with watery eyes. It was kind of sad for me to feel like I can't do it. It's hard to know what to do at this point. I don't know if it's best for me to quit work. Can we even afford that? Maybe I need to start volunteering. If I want an internship it's absolutely crucial I get experience like, yesterday. What's best for our family in the long run? What will keep my sanity? Actually, that last question probably doesn't have any possible answers....ha!

I am sooooo so so so so excited for the holidays! I'm crazy about holidays. If I had it my way, my house would be the one in the paper with the best Christmas lights. My house around Halloween would turn into a cute, spooky haunted house. Valentine's would be a month long affair if I had it my way. First, Halloween. I love Halloween. The only decoration I have is a cute witch that hangs on the door but I'm dying to get her out :)

I want pizza.
I graduate soon.
I love my husband.
The end.

6 comments:

Ali Mills said...

I am BEYOND excited for Christmas this year too! And for almost the same reasons as you! It's gonna be Rory's first Christmas AND the first Christmas where all my family is back together (bro home from his mish) I'm SOOO excited! And I'm excited for Ainsley to get here!!

Annie said...

Alright this is the part where you pick a day next week for me to bring you guys dinner.
No seriously. I'll be totally offended if you don't.
:)

Shay said...

I love you. Slow the heck down- cook your baby and eat your pizza. That is your job- no stressing;-)Easy for me to say, right? After all- I do have a cookie.

Megan said...

You are hilarious. Sorry life is so hectic!! I hope it slows down a little and you get the chance to just enjoy being pregnant! It's almost over!!! A will be here before you know it!! Ahhhhh!!

Marie said...

Woah sounds like u have a lot to do. Remember to breathe in & relax now and then :))

Courtney B said...

Girl!! You amaze me! I really don't know how you do it all! Especially now that the exhaustion is back in my life.... its so hard to make myself do anything! (Except for this week and last week... babysitting 4 kids! So I have to get up at the crack of dawn to get them off to school, get myself off to work, come home and do homework, sports, cooking, cleaning and bed time. And did I mention my hubs was only here to help for 2 days? Ah! I can't ever have kids to take care of and be pregnant at the same time. I guess that means baby girl will be an only child?) But seriously!! I look up to you so much!
And yay for the holidays! I'm so SO excited!