Tuesday, January 24, 2012

I can't wait!

Hi friends!
So I had the absolute BEST time in Disneyland this weekend. I'll post about that later when I have the time/motivation to get the pictures up. I'm so terrible at uploading and posting pictures. Anyone with me?
But anyway. If you want your husband to worship you, go out of town for awhile. He has no heater to warm his toes, no one to cook his dinners or do his dishes or hug and kiss and he doesn't even have someone to tell they look so beautiful. I know. Poor guy. ;)

SO. Lately I've had a bazillion weird cravings.
Salad. I hate salad. Now it's all I want to eat. At the grocery store today I picked up a million ingredients for yummy salad!
Ice cream. Okay ice cream is pretty good anyway but I never crave it. I'm not a huge fan. I'm more of a cookie person.
Boxed cake. Seriously, I'm debating going home and baking one. AND cookies. And buying icecream. Who is going to volunteer to let out my jeans? Or you could just buy me a new pair. Size 10, please. [heaven help me]
Hot dogs. Normally, I'd say gag me. Now I say, stuff my face with 4 at a time please. Although I would never do that in real life. That even sounds gross amidst my craving.

Disclaimer, I'm not pregnant.
But naturally, all these pregnancy-like-cravings have got me thinking.
I want to be pregnant. I want to be a mom. When I see a baby my heart just melts. I stare at babies. I want love giving baby kisses. I get butterflies when I hear baby "coo-ing" sounds. I have strong desires to ask strangers if I can hold their babies. AND... I want to have an excuse to eat all above cravings...in the same meal...twice. Uhm, hello! Lactation takes a lot of calories people!
It's not the time for us now for reasons I'm not obligated to explain to you, but I'm still so excited for that time in our lives. I can't wait to see two lines in that little box! I can't wait to see Clint hold our precious baby...or get up all night with him/her so I can sleep. Totally going to happen, right honey? I can't wait to hear our child say "mom" for the first time or "I love you" or "Jesus". I can't wait for the day where I trip over toys and to pretend to scold our 5 year old to clean up the toys [when really inside I'll be exstatic I have a healthy 5 year old to leave toys out!]. I'm excited to cut our grade school children's PB&Js into fun shapes like hearts and mickey mouses for their lunch box. I can't wait to hear their sweet voice pray. I'm excited for their first school play. I can't wait til I get to say "see that one on the end? Yeah the one picking a giant wedgie. That one's mine." I can't wait to see if they have Clint's dimples or my gigantic teeth. I'm excited to see them learn. To encourage their dreams. To help them discover their interests and talents. To support them. I can't wait to see who they become. Who they marry. I'm excited for the day when they call me, their mom, to ask for guidance. And believe it or not, I'm excited for the day when I get to step back, let them live their own lives, and be there for them as they go throughout life.

Of course, I can wait for the days when they smear poo all over their crib, learn the word no, first tell me they hate me (I hear it's bound to happen a lot), or see them struggle with anything from health to bullying. I realize it will be hard, but I choose to focus on the good. I know there will be nothing more worth my time than being a mother. To all you mothers, I applaude you for all the wonderful things you have taught your children!

Also, I'm dang excited that before the children, through the children, and after the children are on their own I have this handsome guy at my side. What can I say? I win at life.

14 comments:

LeAhnna said...

You have to be the sweetest girl ever. In the whole world. The end. I always love reading your posts so much!
I'm kind of feeling about marriage the way you're feeling about a baby...I can't stop thinking about it, and wishing for it, and planning for it. Even the not-so-great parts will be so amazing, it seems to me.
Hope everything's going well with school for you!

life in a nutshell

Katie said...

I feel the same way, girl. And then I wonder, "What the heck am I doing in school still?!?!"

Noelani said...

I'm glad that you had a fabulous time at Disneyland. We're going to Disney world next month, pretty excited!

I can tell that when the timing is right ... you are going to make an amazing mother! :)

Hanna said...

I just wanted to pop by and thank you for your lovely comment on my Valentine's lollipop cookies on SHINE. YOu should give them a try. They are too cute. New follower here:)

Kara said...

What a beautiful post. You really will be a fantastic mom!

Annie said...

I love this. and ditto on basically your whole post.
Also if you're on Birth Control. It can make you feel pregnant. Seriously. I've had phases of different pregnancy symptoms. For a few weeks I was always exhausted. I got 8 hours of sleep at night and took a 2 hour nap in the afternoon for weeks and was still always tired.
Other times I crave things really bad. Hot wings, ice cream, fresh fruit, spinach salad, you name it.
BC does all kinds of weird stuff (including making the twins grow so you have to buy all new bras. what?!) tmi? oops!
:) So really you're just getting a preview of the pregnant you! haha

But I'm with you sista! As much as I love photography and the other skills and talents I have developed in my life, nothing seems as exciting, worth while, and important as being a mother when the time comes.

Tatiana said...

This was such a sweet post. Let me tell you, as cliché as it sounds, being a mommy is the hardest, yet most rewarding job in the whole wide world. There's nothing like the love you experience the first time you see that little face :-)

Elise Frederickson said...

Lactation takes a lot of calories. tee hee. Seriously though, can't wait for that. Also, loved this. You're gonna be a rockstar momma.

jillsolomonx said...

Well, I'm excited for the part where I get to have another nephew or niece! But I suppose I'll have to wait until you guys are ready for that. (:

Chelsea said...

I am freaking jealous of your Disneyland trip. Ah. You lucky thing!

And being a mom does sound way great. We're sunbeam teachers right now, and I have never been more baby hungry. All in good time, I guess.

Sabrina said...

amazing blog!!!i'm following you!!

ashley.warner said...

you go girl! :)

happy happy to you for having a handsome hubbers. yowzah!

Shalyn said...

This made me cry a little bit...just one more perk of being pregnant;-)

I am going to be honest- I wish I had gotten pregnant sooner. However, every person I talked to before getting pregnant would give me the speech about how once you have them, you have them forever. So, I think its great you are waiting. Enjoy that hubby of yours:-) But when it does happen- it will be the best thing to ever happen, promise.

ashley said...

I'm so glad you stopped by my blog, cause I am loving yours! I am your newest follower. I loved this post- its so important to wait for your time and not others people expectations. Babies are such a blessing in life, and every hard time is worth it! seriously cant wait to read more of your darling little blog here!